Last entry for the month of Jan

I am back with more today. Well, in a nutshell, these couple of days have been tremendous and awesome. With the preaching of the Word by Rev Kong Hee, I have been wonderfully blessed by the Word Pastor preached.

The message for this week was on the "The four Direction of Faith" This sermon was realy awesome that it left me thinking and pondering for awhile.
The points were taken from the verse from Ephesians 3: 17- 20, which is similiar to what's spoken in Isaiah 54: 2

Isaiah 54: 2 talks about enlarging/ stretching/ lenghtening and strengthening. Compared to Ephesians 3: 18, which talks about the Width/ length/ depth and height.

1. Height: Have Faith in God
   - Trust in God in ALL situations.
   - Know that He is a HUGE God and that NOTHING is impossible for Him.
   
2. Dept: Have faith in myself
   - To believe that I can be the person whom God wants me to be and that I can do all things for He is a GREAT, MAJESTIC King who DESERVES ALL GLORY/ HONOR/ POWER AND PRAISES.
   - Know who I am in God and how He views me as. Am I still a sinner/ failure before His eyes or am I a Saint/ victor in Him?
   - It also refers to Ultimate security
   
3. Width: Have faith in Others
   - Trust in others that they too can do it. If one is able to do it, why not you?
   - Jesus had faith in us that we will be changed and be better. If He never have that faith, then why would He die for us on the cross?
   - If Jesus did not have fith in us that we would also do miracles and heal the sick/ blind/ lame/ raise the dead, why was the command given to us that we are also able to do it?
   - Why would Jesus command us to preach the gospel to the ends of the world if He did not have faith in us that we would do it? For fun?
   
4. Length: Have Faith in My Future
   - Know that God have a good and perfect plan for us. It takes faith to believe what is unseen. Just like what Apostle Paul said, what profits us if we can see it? If we can see it, then we cannot have faith in it. Meaning that if we already see it, it's no longer a faith/ believe that such and such exist but it's a fact, not faith.
   - Have faith in God that He wants us to be the head and not the tail, above and not beneath.

Awesome isn't it? Some of the words, was not preached by Pastor but I enforce and modified some parts. However, it speaks about more or less the same thing. :)

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Oh yes, this entry will be the last entry for this blog. I understand that we are allowed a certain limit to our blog and as this is my journal, I would like to be able to view it as time pass. I want to keep it as a memory.

So, if you want to read more of it, do go to the end of the page, there's a link to my blog for the new year... 2005 Feb onwards. Do continue to support me.. Ciaoz...

http://cal-in-2005.blogspot.com/

Monday till today...

Well, it's been sometime since I've last written anything here. So, here it goes... Let's start with Monday, the gathering with some of the ex-classmates whom I knew from Bible school...

I had a wonderful time being with Davin, Jordan (and his wife to be) and Andy. All of us had dinner at Cafe Cartel, at Plaza Singapura. It was the first time Jordan and Andy came to join any outings I organized for the group of students in SOT (School of Theology) 2003. Though, this time, the number of people who turned out was not as many as before, it was nevertheless, a wonderful outing. I enjoyed it. I was able to meet up with them and at least get to talk and fellowship with them. Being a friend is what this means. I am thankful to God that they were able to make it though I wasn't feeling very well.

Also, this is the last monday Davin is spending his time in Singapore and he will be flying over to Aussie the next week's monday. I'm thinking of seeing him off... *Looks at right leg* Sigh... I'll see how things goes...

Actually, nothing much happened these couple of days as I was resting at home most of the time. I was also down with cough, flu, sore throat and fever. I was supposed to teach tution to Calvin(a primary two student) but I don't wanna spread the sickness to him. Sigh... I guess I've caught these via JingJie when I went to Church last week. H was seated besides me and was blowing his nose off... It amazes me that he did not blew his nose till it drops... Wahaha... *Opps, I'm being BAD*

This morning, I woke up at about 4am, to watch the match between Manchester United and Chelsea. Well, I'm sure you've known the result of the match. Yes, Chelsea won but it was really a good match. If only that Howard did not look in awe of the free kick, kicked by Duff, the match would have had a different turn.

Anyway, I will still support Manchester United, regardless of what the results would be. I'm not after the fact that they are the champions or whatever. Just that I like the way they played and how they would defend and attack.

Went down to Singaapore General hospital to have my cast changed and stitches taken out. Yes, verily soon, I can walk and "fly" again. Man, I really missed walking fast... A pace where I would feel like I'm driving at top speed whenever I walk.

The nurses (male) are funny. Joked and made fun while at work. They seem so happy to be there and pressure free. Especially that indian nurse. He's so funny. Always bringing a smile to others in the ward. The other time, they pasted two stickers on my cast. This time, they stick like crazy... They stuck SIX stickers. 3 bears and 3 Ninja turtles. Gosh... I feel like I'm getting younger... No longer 27 but... 2+ 7... LOLX...

Faith comes by hearing...

It's only 2:35 right now but I was listening to the bible from the book of Matthew to right now, Book of Acts.

While listening to the audio bible, somehow, I felt convicted and moved by the Word of God. Ok, I was multi-tasking but my attention was mostly upon the word of God...

Even while having lunch, I had a revelation from God. That He is the source of everything. Yes, it may seem old but this is not a new revelation except that while listening to the Word, I almost burst into tears. This was because my parents and siblings were yet saved. I really want to see them saved but... I'm not sure when this will happen but I am not going to give up praying for them.

Besides that, I felt very grateful unto God for revealing this and for convicting my heart. Even while eating, I felt so grateful... Unto God that I do not need to worry about what to wear, eat, drink etc... I felt that I ought to live like the Children of Israel, while they were in the wilderness, depending upon the manna from God daily.

See, the Children of Israel depended upon God when Moses led them out of Egypt into the promised land. It was during this time, the time of Exodus that they were being provided for by God.

I admit this, that my parents are facing alot of difficulities now. Primarily, in the area of finances and in the business in the market. (They once reject and disallowed me to pray for them when business were getting better. I wanted them to know that it is God Who made it possible but... they... Are unable to see...)

I am pretty sure that business went bad due to the rejection. This was because it happened the very day they rejected the idea that I got some of my members to pray for them...

Anyway, felt led to write this as I am very thankful and grateful unto God for providing me and my entire family with our daily food. I really pray with all my heart, mind and soul that my parents and siblings will be saved. Also, that they would be blessed by God, least they work so hard... In vain...

This is heartache to me. It pains me to see my parents wake up at 4:30an and go to the market to work from morning 5am- 1pm. Then my mum would rush home to prepare lunch/ dinner till around 2pm, then take a nap and wakes up at 3:30pm to work in NTUC. After work in NTUC ends at around 7-8pm, she would come back and prepare dinner and then sleeps at 11:30pm. While my dad, who works in the night-shift from 8pm- 4:30am. (cause he rushed home to help out) This is HARDWORK!!! I feel the pain, frustration and anger within my dad as he's frustrated at his work place. He puts his heart into work only to be rewarded by criticisms and unhappiness from his collegues.

What's wrong with humans nowadays? When they get a job, are they paid to work or are they paid to slack/ sleep at work? What's wrong with working and doing what you are supposed to do when you are paid? What is wrong with their mind? My dad do train up people from time to time, being one of the (if not,) the best worker with great attitude, to do their jobs. When they have learnt their jobs, they turned their backs from the master. The one who taught them... This happens not once, but so many times in my dad's life. Some, even wanted to plot against his life...

I am not a racist. However, these people, whom my dad trained, were mostly, from a certain ethical group. It's alright for them to scold/push one another (for work) but when they seat at the table, eating, they get together again and seems like nothing happens while when my dad told them that they are to complete their jobs, they treat my dad like an enemy. These are sheer racist... :(

Goodness, kindness and presence of Almighty God

Today has been an awesome day for me. From the time I woke up till now... I feel so happy, favoured, blessed and protected by God.

My first lesson with Ron was rather hilarious as he came to my place... empty handed. As I have not bought any assessments for him, I asked him to go buy one for himself. Which I thank God he did. From what I've observed, he's a little lazy in wanting to do maths. A form of unwillingness to think that extra mile and felt that he don't really liked maths.

Anyway, I was really awesomely (if there's such a word) BLESSED today. Not that I am financially blessed or whatsoever but that FINALLY I am able to be back in Church. My heart leaps for JOY to be back in the House of God, where I can really be in the place where Angels descends and ascends to and fro heaven and earth.

Today's Word was awesome... Now I realized the importance of going power-house and what's the reason behind it. It's never to show how pious one is, how Godly/ religious/ how talented/ on fire for God are you but it's an attitude and to understand/ recognize that that is the HOUSE OF GOD, where Angels hear prayers, bring up to heaven and submit to God our "daily/hourly reports" but also a place where God speaks to us, gives us visions/ dreams/ desires which are GREATER and BIGGER than what I can think or imagine of.

The members in Church, cell members, ushers and everyone in Church were very helpful and kind. They offered to help and walk the extra miles. People like Ron, ChengHao, Xue er, Jason, Bro Colin Lim, Sister Gillian, Lawerance, Adrian, JingJie, Rickson, Frankie and various others really touched my heart someway or another (My beloved cell members too). Nevertheless, I know one thing, God is the source and ultimate giver of all these blessings poured into my life. I am eternally grateful and glad to God forever.

Regardless how things turn out to be for me today, I will still pledge my heart to God, Almighty. In John 3: 16, it's written that "For God so loves the world that He SENT His BELOVED SON, to die for us when we were yet sinners."

Just this passage alone speaks a great depth and deal. This passage alone won my heart!

Had a wonderful time in Church and I enjoyed every single moment in Church today. I felt an openess in my surroundings. People who seems not to care about me, began to shower concerns and love towards me... I am really overwhealmed and am touched. I am really eternally grateful unto God.

I can really sing with ALL my HEART, SOUL and Spirit that I am eternally loving God. I want to love Him MORE even when I am not doing well. It's not about the returns and blessing but He is worthy and is always my God!

First Cell of the year

Well, you've gotten it right! I attended cell group and it's the first for the year! Yup, was excited about it. Talk about a fish getting back to the waters man...

I never expected Cheng Hao to come and pick me up as I thought it's a normal school day but learnt that its a holiday today! So, Cheng Hao came with GuiSheng to pick me up for cell. Man, am I excited... Feel so happy to be able to get out of my home, to go to where I want... To where God's presence can be found. (Of course, I can have the presence of God even at the comfort of home but it's a total feeling to be with a group of believers who loves God and worshipping God together. It's really different)

After picking me up, we set off, to Sister G's cell but before, one more thing yet done, to pick up Charles. It's been sometime since I last saw him...

Charles, a former PTI, studying in Australia now, back on vacation. Well, I think those who have been in cell group for sometime, misses Charles and well, finally, we are able to be "reunited" with him! Glory to God!

Man, he's like getting darker... (maybe I am just being too fair, owning to the lack of getting under the Sun) Sigh... Anyway, this time round, when I went cell, I was like treated like a VIP, due to my cast but I don't want to be so special. I just want to be with them, to be the same as them and to be seated at the same level. I appreciate the kind acts but I really miss cell and don't want to be made special... Or to be treated differently...

Today's cell group could possibily be the longest cell group I've ever had since I came back to God. From 5 to about 9pm... It was wonderful to be fellowshipping with the rest of the cell and I was glad that my Spiritual life did not go on a holiday mood during the holidays. Instead, I felt I am much more on fire for God... :)

The members in cell were so nice to me. I sense a change in their attitude towards me and felt that they missed me for sometime. Wahaha... Shameless me... Anyway, was really happy and glad to be back in cell group and am looking forward to going back to Church tomorrow. I believe it'll be an awesome time spent back tomorrow.

Today, members like GaoWei, Alex and Aderline came for cell group. Especially, GaoWei, man I was glad to see him there. Oh ya, Adrian and Jessica also came for make up, it was great. Oh yes, special guest "star guitarist", our beloved leader's hubby, Bro ZhiYong played well and man, he have powerful vocals. Awesome... The entire cell's Spiritual atmosphere was not too bad. I like it. I felt God smiling at me today. It was great... I want to see Him and to experience more and more for Him. Man... I am hungry for His presence and more encounters with God...

Though, not the entire cell was present today but I was also happy cause it seems like a happy family and that I felt that we have already multiplied.

I was expecially inspired by a couple of things during the cell. First, the word of wisdom God gave upon Sister G and the confirmation of God's word to the cell group from me were also confirmed by Charles. I really hope to bring the entire cell to another level. Not by my own strength but through prayer. To see people like GaoWei, Alex coming back to Church and especially cell and the want in them to be on fire for God.

The most inspiring moment was the message read out by Sister G from Pastor Kong about the journal. I am ready and excited also for the fact that this year's cell group recruitment is going to be tougher and that if the leader's being chosen, then he/she will be personally discipled by Pastor Kong. I am LOOKING FORWARD TO IT.

I want to be discipled and be moulded by God, through the hands of Pastor Kong. I see flashes of what things will be for me in the future to come... (To preach the word, a world class preacher in the mould and likes of Rev Kong, Rev Ulf Ekman, Apostle Paul etc...)

Spiritual Attack

I realized one thing. Whenever I don't play any worship/ praise songs, I get some form of attack Spiritually. It's strange yet true. I am beginning to suspect something is wrong in my room but am not sure where.

I have dedicated the entire room into God's hands. I am sleeping alone in my room but what is going on? I have been walking rightly before God for sometime now. I wonder... I cannot take any chances, not to be super spiritual but I think God showed me something while I was asleeped earlier...

Someone "wrapped" around my entire body, trying to suffocate me. It feels like a bear hug, only that it is trying to squeeze the life out of me. I suspect it's in my cupboard... Need to do some delieverance to my room. Sigh... How? I mean, I am still in a cast... Argghhh...

Funny thing was that, when I tried to break free, I was not able. Instead the grip tighten on me. When I got rather frustrated, I almost woke up but can't seem to break free. Something strong yet, not stronger than Jesus is doing something unto me...

If I am not wrong, I believe it is the power of prayer. Especially the past couple of night and day's of prayer and worshipping. Binding the powers that is stopping my parents and sblings to Christ. If I am not wrong, I think they are being tortured by me and feels threatened by me. Especially when I prayed ferverntly to God to ask God to help me and anoint me... To led my parents and siblings to Him... Hehe... This must be it!

As I recall, I was even tempted into lustful thoughts and even getting frustrated easily. Not a normal me who would lose my cool. Yes, something is happening around the Spiritual atmosphere in my home. Glory to God!

Now, next problem I have to get rid is to get rid of the messed up rest timing I have been having. I have enough! I am not going to wait till wee hours and keep late nights anymore. NO MORE LATE NIGHTS AND NO MORE SUPPERs or MEALS after 8pm!

Oh yah... These few days, I have been messing up with my computer. Cause it suddenly died on me and I need to load and unload, download and delete alot of stuffs. I thank God that my com's been running smoothly from yesterday till now. I do hope that nothing else will grow wrong now. Especially my data... Precious datas from SOT... My lessons etc... Cannot... Must save and protect it...

Gosh, it's about 2:30pm now. Am getting sleepy now... :( Cannot... Must endure...

Design T-Shirt

Have been entrusted to do some designing of t-shirts by Sister Gillian. Its so exciting. Need something funky and something cool... Something which will remind cell members and something which will catch attention and in a way, play a part in reminding members that we must keep the fire and passion for God going on and on...After drawing some designs, I stopped. Looked and was rather pleased with the entire product. However, a few day's work... Only three drawings/ designs? No way man. I am not going to stop there and rot.The design must not be too casual. It got to be cool, classy, eye catching, majestic and stands out from crowd. YES! I think that is the design. Hehee... when I have the time, I'll upload the pictures... :)Am so pleased!!! It looks so... ermmm... nice? Lolx... anyway, unable to color all the thing as the entire background of the t-shirt's suppose to be black...

How does it look?

***Things to ponder***

Sometimes I really find it rather interesting as well as frightening to pray. This is because when it comes true, it becomes extremly frightening. Not that I am not happy that my prayer comes true but to know that everything that one prayed, written or have thought before, actually came to pass. God records and know all hearts!

Why do I say that? I am very happy that I am more fervent for God now. I don't know what I was doing while surfing the net and by God's will, I came across some sermon mp3 and artices of past well known and respected generals of God as well as some theoloy discussion net. Speak about wanting to know God more and to be more sharp in knowing and remembering the exact facts of the bible...

I mean... Wonderful to find these but it's frightening and shameful to know that I need to know so much more and look into different perspectives instead of being contented with what I knew and be proud of it. God's wisdom... Bewildering... Makes me wonder alot of things now...

Also, I came across sermon mp3 by... Jonathan Edwards - Sinners, at the Hands of Angry God. Though the sermon sounds old (of course a little old, as he existed about 300years ago) The person who preached had a deep voice but speaks in voice that convicts my heart. *Ponder*

Anyway, I really got to hasten things up. I must not waste time but to rise up. I do hope, that one day, I would want to be like those great men of God. Not for fame but for the glory of God. Preaching the word to the ends of the earth. To those who once rejected the word and was bias and to those who misundestood what was said. Indeed now I understand, why they say what's said had been said and asked by many before. I got to learn more from history; one which I used to like but gave up.

~*~*~God, I miss You and Your Holy Presence BADLY~*~*~

After listening to what Pastor preached via internet, my soul, spirit and mind so pants for the presence. Just like how psalmist David said in Psalms 42:

As the deer pants for the water brooks,
So pants my soul for You, O God.
2 My soul thirsts for God, for the living God.
When shall I come and £appear before God?
3 My tears have been my food day and night,
While they continually say to me,
"Where is your God?"
4 When I remember these things,
I pour out my soul within me.
For I used to go with the multitude;
I went with them to the house of God,
With the voice of joy and praise,
With a multitude that kept a pilgrim feast.
5 Why are you cast down, O my soul?
And why are you disquieted within me?
Hope in God, for I shall yet praise Him
£For the help of His countenance.
6 £O my God, my soul is cast down within me;
Therefore I will remember You from the land of the Jordan,
And from the heights of Hermon,
From the Hill Mizar.
7 Deep calls unto deep at the noise of Your waterfalls;
All Your waves and billows have gone over me.
8 The Lord will command His lovingkindness in the daytime,
And in the night His song shall be with me—
A prayer to the God of my life.
9 I will say to God my Rock,
"Why have You forgotten me?
Why do I go mourning because of the oppression of the enemy?"
10 As with a breaking of my bones,
My enemies reproach me,
While they say to me all day long,
"Where is your God?"
11 Why are you cast down, O my soul?
And why are you disquieted within me?
Hope in God;
For I shall yet praise Him,
The help of my countenance and my God.

As I read through the entire Psalms, my heart melts and hungers more and more for God. My heart cries out to Him, to restore my soul and spirit, to love Him more earnestly and hungrily. What Pastor preached was really a word from God; a Word of season to my life.

The title of the message is "RECREATE THE WORLD AROUND ME"

It all started with Genesis 1: 1, the very first book and mesaage of God. How He formed the world and created the then, messy world.

To cut things short, the points are as follows:

1. Build life around the word of God - Genesis 1: 1 - 3
2. Separation – Also known as Salvation - Genesis 1: 6
3. Develop Character - Genesis 1: 11- 12
4. Commit myself to the Church of the Living God - Genesis 1: 14- 18
5. Prayer - Church and prayer goes together - Genesis 1: 20
6. Power of God - Genesis 1: 24
7. Attitude of Faith - Genesis 2: 2

Awesome right? If you noticed, each point represents each day God created the world. After hearing the entire sermon, my soul BURNS and HUNGERS more for God. I want to get my life right with Him once again. That is why I am a Christian If I want to be a Christian, I OUGHT to GIVE UP my SINFUL nature, and put on the New Man God have made in me.

If one day, I am not doing what I say, do remind me of these. I want to develop the 9 fruits of the Holy Spirit and also learn how to move in the gifts of the Holy Spirit.

Look up for these two men (as mentioned below). There are very interesting things about them on what their descendants become and are doing right now. Are they contributing to the society or are they a libility to society. Look for their genealogy or their chronicles. Interesting...

Max Jude
Jonathan Edwards

I want my ROOTS to be rooted DEEP into the House of God.

Finally

YES! Thank God for giving me the insprations in finishing the design and the oder of my blog. If not, I'll be stucked trying to do the entire thing, arranging the format etc... :)

I'm so glad and happy. Spent about 1hour plus with God and was worshipping Him like never before. Awesome... Felt His presence and was touched within my heart. Truly, I have entered the place where He is. The awesome presence of God.

I look forward for this day as I felt really recharged in my soul and spirit. A hunger for Him too. After sometime, it was about 7am. Gosh... Time and tide waits for no men. It was about 2am when I wanted to rest and the next thing I knew, I was playing my guitar and enjoying myself in the presence of God. Wonderful!

Before anything goes, I was listening to His Word and enjoying His wonderful presence. How I love that feeling. I really hope to be able to enter this presence of the Lord Most High. After I've finished worshipping, I was ircing as well as trying to meddle with my blog, efforts does pays off!

Chatted with my "friendster" friend, Jasmine. Had a wonderful time talking to her via the phone and net. Before long, I was in a way ministering to her. Talking to her about the spiritual aspects of life and how the evil one would come and hurt her with her past. Guess, the entire event with Jasmine was appointed by God. truly, God knows the time and season of each person.

After ministering/ counselling her, I found breakthroughs and I am believing that verily soon, I'll be able to invite her to Church, to nurse her broken heart.

Maureen, I'm sorry... ~_~

I felt so frustrated! I am not allowed to go Maureen's wedding... Sigh... I don't know why... I just want to go out... Even when I fell asleeped, I even dreamt that I was at he wedding...

She's a ex-classmate whom I got to know during SOT 2003. She's of the same age as me and she's been a very good friend of mine. Always giving me encouragements and support. I really feel very bad when I was not allowed to go attend her wedding on the 10th January 2005.

Maureen, if one day you ever read my blog, I really want to say I am sorry for not being able to make it for your big day. It's not that I do not want to go at all. I am unable and my dad refuses to let me go. I got changed, prepared myself, bathed etc and yet... I was told that I am not allowed to go. I am really deeply sorry for not able to attend your wedding.

Operation day

Well, this is the day which I have longed for... Not that I am a saddist but that I simply have had enough of having my ankle sprained and to go through the agony of the pain.

I was late for the appointment but I thank God that the entire appointment was not cancelled. I reached there before 0930hrs and the operation started at about 1030hrs. This is the second operation I had in my life time and well, both, I went alone.

I feel so demoralized when I went there. This song, "ALL BY MY SIDE" came into my mind. It then seems like an eternity when I was in the Operating Theathre (OT). Time suddenly seems to have stood still...

When I went into the OT, I was "welcomed" by the nurses and Doctors. Then something I did never expected befall unto me. I mean I was to be operated on my ankle, then the nurse did something which puzzles me... She came and untie my gown and... sigh... my back was exposed... :(

Nevertheless, I do not know what happened after they put me on GA. What I knew was when I woke up... rather, when I was still feeling drowsy, I was praying in tongues. :) That is something which I never expected myself to be doing... the moment I regained conscious. Nevertheless, I was extremely happy that I did that. (I don't know why)

After this operation on my ankle, I learnt a number of things. First, God arranges everything for me even though I have not done any arrangements. He knows what I really need and maybe, He will let me see things through this operation? That remains to be seen.

Anyway, when I woke up, I felt pain over at my ankle. I felt burning sensation and felt that my ankle were ripped apart. The nurse changed my gown (and I was stripped :( ) nah, they did not see me naked at all. They are professionals afterall. After an hour or so, I was pushed into the ward. As I do not have anything beside me, I was like waiting like crazy in the bed.

In about 30minutes, Wei May came to visit me. I really thank God for her. If it's not because of her, I'd not be able to return home after my operation. Well, partly because I'm found of her but I know, it's not possible. Am sad to know that she's going overseas but glad for her... Cause her business is doing rather well now... A sense of regret fills my heart... That I am unable to go overseas to study with her... To improve on my qualifications.

I feel so bad that she had to wait for me for about 3hours before I could be discharged. Silly doctors. Why can't you let me go earlier? WeiMay had to undergo hunger... :( Planned to have lunch with her... Sigh...

She was nice enough to see me home. Gosh, this is the first time someone saw me home... *blush* She's my buddy mah, so... =) I really thank God for her.

When I hit home, I felt so tired that I feel flat and dozed off... seriously, I feel very touched and happy that WeiMay saw me home... :)

~~**~~``Brand New Year``~~**~~

Yup, it's a BRAND New Year. In fact, the second day of a brand New Year. Not pretty sure why I'm feeling this but I feel super excited in a brand New Year despite the fact of the Tsunami around my region.

I really thank God with ALL my HEART, SOUL, MIND and MIGHT that Singapore's not been effected by the tsunami at all. I believe it is the Spiritual covering of God that prevents things from happening in Singapore.

Sad to say, my non-believer parents do not believe in this. They say its luck. Where on the world things happens by chance or by luck? If there is such thing, why is it that whenever I pray for something, things happens? Why is it that whenever I DO NOT pray about certain things, they do not happen? Luck? I beg to differ...

Looking back:
On the 31st of December 2004, Rickson, Ron, Jing Jie and Brian (Rickson and Ron's cousin) went out together with me, to countdown. Man, I was really glad when they asked me out. This shows me that I am welcomed and well liked by them. (This is what I perceive) Maybe they asked me out because they enjoyed my company when we went out for Christmas countdown.

It was a wonderful time spent together with them. Able to know them more and they seem to be more opened to me. Anyway, we went to watch "KungFu Hustle" for the second time. Though the entire show was rather dumb but it was hilarious. All of us laughed our socks off.

31st December 2004, seems so far away yet, it was a time when I felt sad, yet happy. A mixed feeling within. I'm sure most people would feel that way. When they suggested to go countdown, I initially wanted to go home and rest. However, I did not want to let them down. As a result, I went and join them.

It was about 2350hrs; 11.50pm when we boarded the MRT. Went from Bishan, all the way down to Orchard MRT. It was on the train that we had our countdown. Was my very first countdown in the MRT track though.

When we hit Orchard MRT, everyone of them began to run. Leaving me behind... Sigh... But thank God that they remembered me. :) We walked to and fro, from Orchard to Somerset. It must be more than 10 times we walked that stretch of road. We bought some snow spray cans and had fun spraying one another... and those who came along our way. In such events, those who are sporty had fun. Sad to say, not everyone's sporty. They are joy killers. We saw a number of people wanting to beat up the one who sprayed them and it was really an unsightly sight.

I really thank God that nothing happened to anyone. Indeed God hears prayer and protects His beloved. Though we saw people trying to stir trouble, we manage to get out of the place and carried on havng our fun.

Time flies and soon it was about 4am that we headed for home. All of them were dead tired but enjoyed themselves during this time. The time spent was well spent with them. When I reached home, I could not rest but was praying for the tsunami victims and those who were still missing. I really pray that God will protect those who are still missing and miraclously kept them alive. For those who have lost their family members, I pray that the peace of God will come upon each and everyone of them. That they will find hope and peace in God. Just as how Job did, when he lost his entire household and properties in a day. That NONE will be bitter against God but will know that He is God who is ABLE to do what we can never imagine about.

In the recount of Job's story, Job was restored TWICE the amount of what he had lost and became the most wealthy man in Asia.
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FIRST SERVICE OF THE YEAR!
In this first service, I can sense that the entire atmosphere was rather good. An atmosphere of faith and expectancy in the entire service. It might be because of Pastor Aries and the team he led, went over to Banda Acheh to help the survivors of the Tsunami.

Planning for the year 2005. A good move for a year. Yes, many things happened in the year 2004, both for me and for others but I want to start my year well. I do not want to end up having a bad year and worse... having a year, unplanned.

I am filled with expectancy and feeling very excited for this year. I know, something WONDERFUL is gonna happen to me this year.